Rui Ning's Blog =D

Moved

2010-03-02T12:49:00.002+08:00

Relink me @ http://www.gniniur.wordpress.com

Graduated

2010-02-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

NUH D&D

I am done with BLT!

VIVA VOCE

2010-02-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

Nah, it's tomorrow!!! I am so super scared. I heard that there will be 7 judges...OMGOMGOMG! If FYP is scary, I think this will be 3000 times more scary. At least I have my groupmates and classmates for FYP, and I am all alone for VIVA. Sadded!

Thinking of that makes me even more nervous.
I think I will start to blabber...

Nah, POLY ends at 9.45am for me!
=)
Jia you!

挺好的！

2010-02-23T20:10:00.000+08:00

I am almost done with BLT!!! Yay, finished all papers!! What's left is the dreadful VIVA.

挺好的！

When to chill out with classmates after the final paper. It was a journey to the EAST. Super far lor, the journey to there was ok, since there's accompany and we talk non-sop. However, I journey was super long long long, and everyone were so tired. I empatize those staying in the east. Imagine that they have to do this everytime there is school...sad lor.

Anyway, went to Marcus' house to see his dogs. Super cute, especiallt the white one!! Ok la, I am biased, haha! Cos I like the way the dog moves, so unique and so gu niang...Haha! He can never lost it. Ok, that blackie is a little tooooo tall. But still cute la~ Gonna steal them home! Haha!

Then we went to MZ's house. The house is a little small sia, but the wind and balcony is nice!!! Holiday mood indeed! Played blackjack. I must say that I am not suited to gamble... Firstly, I am not lucky. Secondly, I can't help to reveal my cards...Nah, it's nature, I can't play "Cheat" either. But I did not lost alot this time, probably about 30 cents ba. It's ok, just for fun isn't it?

Next, we went to watch movie. It is like a usual practice, we alway go to watch movie for class gathering. Watched little big soldier this time round... 挺好的！I don't really like to watch Jackie Chan's movie but this is a good watch! Super funny lor~

It is nice to have such gathering... 挺好的！Hehe! =)

i am dead for lab mag!

2010-02-22T01:41:00.012+08:00

I cannot finish reading through the notes...
I started too late...
I had under-estimated lab mag
I still don't understand many things.
I don't want the paper to kill me!

:(

Anyway,
Serve me right!

But still,
God bless me! Please............

Lab Mag

2010-02-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

I am so shag after the first 2 paper, no energy to continue lab mag and VIVA liao...

=(

Hope everything goes well.

Oh yea, Yin Ling proposed a trip to Redang!!! Sounds nice!

10 things

2010-02-18T18:44:00.000+08:00

I am obessed with Yebbie recently. Can't help it, she's too adorable (evidence below). Don't worry, I still love eeyore! Aww~ love!

(Presenting : Yebbie)

No mood to study, take some time off to blog.

Random stuff I did today:

Slept with Yebbie
Went to photocopy my results slip and IC for uni application
Got herself a big white envelop for (1)
Paid off the $10 for (1)
Had Nasi Lemak for brunch and lots of green tea
Quarelled with my sis
Blogged, and blog hopping
Facebooked
Daydreaming~
Study, yucks!

Good luck peep! Tml is MDC day!

Counting down : It's another 7 days ahead!!

2010-02-18T02:04:00.002+08:00

(My comfort food -> I love gummy colas to the max!)

Woo hoo, 1 paper down!

But I feel 毛毛的，很不踏实. I feel that I did something major wrong, but I cannot pinpoint what was that something. Grr~~~ I don't know leh, I am not confident with my answers. Am I oversensitive of what? I just feel very weird. Really hope that the results will be ok.

The next one will be MDC, on friday. Sian, I doubt I can finish studying sia... the notes are so super thick. Pray pray. For some unknown reasons, I am very insecure with this semester's exam. Probably I am getting slacker and I did not study as much as before. Or maybe it is because of CNY and I am still in holiday mood? =(

I am doing my uni mapplication these few days. The NUS payment webpage cannot be display, so this means that I don't have to pay? Haha, no la, got to figure it out. I thought my results are ok, until I see Wang Qin's one. OMG... He got a 4 point L1R4 for his O level, I am like far from his. His poly results are also very very, or I should say, EXTREMELY good la... Envy sia~ he had so many module awards, me leh, 1 pathetic and it is IAC somemore! CRAP! Haha, moral of the story... who says made in China is not good!?! LOL.

Last but not least:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YIN LING~

CNY (edited)

2010-02-16T11:38:00.003+08:00

Happy CNY to everyone!

(Angpaos for display...)

CNY is tiring... Need to "prettify" (<- my sis's language) myself before going out and even at home. Blowing hair, makeup and finding the right dress is such a chore after repeating it again and again. Yea, I admit that I am a girl who is not interested with "prettifying" myself. I do it once a while when I am in cherry mood but when it comes to CNY, nah, so irritating. 5 people fighting for 2 bathrooms, then everyone waiting for each other "unhappily", shouting and scolding... ok shall not elaborate on the unglam-ness, to sum up, it was just super ma fan.

Everyone is asking the same thing (just like the KFC commercial)! "Where you study huh", "What course liao", "Which year", "Where is your boyfriend", "Never bring home to let us see see" ya, kind of that. Kind of funny...

I have serious age gap with my cousins... nah, no common topic. I realised that many of my cousins are more than 10 years older than me, quite amazed. They are reaching 30s when I am still in my teens (ok la, a few months to 20 la) It seems that I am from a different era... The guys alway chat about army stuff, girls how leh?! Boyfriend lor! No boyfriend how leh? Keep quiet and watch TV. Haha...

By the way, I recieved more ang pao this year, yay...

Reality check. I feel so dead, test is on tomorrow!!! Crap! I had just started... I wonder if I can finish the piles of notes and understand them. GRRR, why exams in between CNY, it is always like that! Petition! I totally did not touch my notes, I think my results will turn out to be horrrendous. OMG~

Oh ya, I think my allergy is getting worst. After all the CNY spring cleaning, my nose is so screwed. Then the flu like symptoms kick in, then headache, then cannot tahan, go sleep. Till today, my nose is still not obedient, sneezing non-stop!

Ah, back to study, bye!

(Edit)

I am almost done with my studying... My head grew bigger liao...

Anyway, cheer up Rui Ning, 8 more days to the end of poly life... =) Get it done!

Yup, I submitted my uni application to NUS and NTU. Fingers-crossed!

BIF

2010-02-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

BIF(Before I fail, LOL), let me say a few words.

Tthe exam sydrome starts to kick in... BIF marks the start of the exam season.

Mug... Continue mugging

Tml's BIF is abit GG. It is a test, but I think it is more like an exam. 40% credit, if I screw this (quite possible), I should go to knock the walls. I don't want to fail!!! Actually, I don't even want to score a "C" or lesser, I want my transcript to be "C-free". Ha~ ambitious lor! I must try to keep my record clean... god bless.

I tried to understand the stuff, but once again I confused myself. Too many terminologies which are 90% identical in their meaning. I alway confuse them up. Nah~

I found a pattern (motif?!? LOL) for the past exams. The modules with smaller credit weightage are actually my killer modules. Things like ATBMS, G&P, Info Tech, Lab Management anf BIF etc. Bad omen?! Yea!

Oh ya, I found something interesting just now. Do you know that Npal included a section known as "Absence Summary" in their website? I clicked on it out of curiousity and discovered that I have a absent record, it is for BIF. -_____-''! I am pretty sure that I wasn't absent, I think I was late. Nvm.

最近头有好晕，大概是大姨妈要来了吧！zzz

See ya! Good luck to those mugging BIF (plus myslef)! AD everyone!

CNY is nearing

2010-02-10T23:29:00.003+08:00

(Spring cleaning: Wah~ I fished out so many tags from my wardrobe)

Yoyo, CNY is nearing~~~ and the deadful Final Sem Exam.

No mood for anything =(

I am just feeling sickish and tired every now and then... nah~

Non-productive study session =(

Well, focus!!!
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Woo~ I started to appreciate the beauty of Bioinfomatics

I used to hate it like XXX, but now, after mugging for just a few hours, I begin to turn hatred into interest...

Yea, that's a good thing!

Fortunately I am year 3 and I finished molecular biology and relevant stuff, if not, I will not understand most of the terms used.

But the problem is that my study speed is too slow... need to turbo now!!

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Oh ya, Director's Dialogue tomorrow...

Hope that there will be some improvements to be made. Although is will not affect me, I hope that my juniors will get better treatments.

=)

Status: Exam Mode

2010-02-08T20:07:00.001+08:00

(Piles of notes...)

It is so incredible that I am actually at the last stage of my poly education. I know it is cliche but seriously, time files! My 3rd year is going to end pretty soon, to be exact, 2 more weeks to go. Finished the all practicals and lectures, what's left are the major exams. Gambatte!

I must admit that I am worried, especially for bioinfomatics. Also, I discovered that I don't understand some of the NUH lectures that I did not attend. Moral of the story -> never skip lectures! Haiz...

The most mood-dampeining matter is that the exams overlapped with Chinese New Year... Nah~~~ Sad lor! CNY should be a happy occassion, but it will become super stressful due to the exams.

Well, that's the bad thing for choosing to student in a polytechnic. No choice.

Sidetrack: I don't know why, but my knee seems to be hurting recently. I did not do anything, no injuries, no stress, no stunts... It just hurt more gradually. Sad lor! =( I don't wish to pop in painkillers cause it always cause me drowsiness and gastric discomforts. Hm, knee pain pain...

Temper Management

2010-02-07T17:34:00.003+08:00

The sky is grey, but my mood is greyer...

I think my entire family needs to go for temper management lessons...

I am probably the only sane person

And to all of the mentally unstable ones:

CAN YOU PEOPLE STOP VENTING YOUR TEMPER AT ME!!
There is a reason why some of us prefer not to come home.
It doesn't means that I am at home and I have to tolerate all the SHIT...
Know what?! One fine day I can declare that I had enough.

When I don't say anything, it doesn't means that I agree with your actions...
I just can't be bothered!

I kept quiet,
but it doesn't mean that you can bully me!
You are the loudest,
but it doesn't mean that you win!

I don't want to become nasty
But if you guys keep pushing me, I can become so!

我知道我可能很好欺负，但是我的容忍是有限度的！
老虎不发威，不要把我当病猫！
我不是你们的出气筒，我也不是白痴！

Crap, another moodless day!

Uni Application

2010-02-06T11:54:00.000+08:00

I should start my uni application soon.

And I am confirm going to apply to NUS and NTU.

Hopefully I can secue myself a place =)

Good luck for all of my friends too!

Peng-san

2010-02-04T23:40:00.001+08:00

Tired, tired, tired!

So busy these few days:
Sun - Shopping ~~~
Mon - Lecture, video
Tues - Doing BIF @ home
Wed - Dance, BIF, sorted out lecture notes
Thurs - BIF, WISP reflection, cut hair, dye hair, 嘛嘛's birthday
Fri - BIF presentation/report due, dance, study for BIF test

At last, my BIF is done! Yay~

I am so tired physically and mentally. I wanna a good sleep tomorrow~

People, I haven't start my revision, stop stressing me!!! -____-''

Sidetrack: 嘛嘛生日快乐，爱你哟！

Randoms

2010-02-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

It's another dancing session today... and I can finally catch up with everyone. =) It has been 3 weeks since my injury and I think I am healing well. I still have this tiny part (i don't know what is it actually..maybe a ligament or something...) that moves left and right everytime I move my knee. Sometimes, the tiny part moves out of place and it is super painful. I re-injured my knee at least 5 times through the recovery. Nah~ fortunately it is getting better. I can do the kneeling part now, but not so aggressively. Hope that my knee will get back to normal really soon.

Oh yup, changed my partner... I have SK as my new partner! Ok la, although he is playing 90% of the time but when it is time to be serious, he will be serious. Yay, and most importantly, he did not drop me!!! Haha...

For the past few days, I was figuring out BIF. My head grew bigger 20 times sia, I don't know if I am doing the right thing, I try to sort out the info that I have and see if it works or not. Hm, hope that I am going the right track.

I sorted out my lecture notes and it summed up to a scary amount. Woo~~~ faint, how am I going to finish studying everything... Year 3 is going to end in less than 30 days!

Family Outing~

2010-02-01T00:55:00.001+08:00

Went retail therapy again (and spent quite alot once again!!!) ~

But I am happy la, don't mind the money spent. Statisfied!

Bought 2 bags at one go... 1 "fun" bag that looks very nautical, another "heavy-duty" bag that is big enough for my everyday barang barangs.

I am so tired... my legs, my hands and everything.

There's lots of quarelling this weekend, but I learnt alot out of that too! Hope that everything goes well!

I gave my words to mum, promised that I will do my best to provide her a good life in future... love her!

I do, because I care. Hope that things just gets better!

It's time to start studying

2010-01-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

The final semester is coming to an end very soon! Nah, will be quite busy with school matters from now on.

Things to be done:

Bioinformatics Project (5 Feb)
So dead! I don't understand the topic sia... Argh, I don't know how to get it done! I need alot alot alot of help, who can help me! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ I am stressed!
Bioinformatics Test (12 Feb)
Once again, I am really dead for it. Need to try very hard!
Lab Endocrine (17 Feb)
Molecular Diagnositics (19 Feb)
Lab Management (22 Feb)
Final exam!!! Need to try hard to score well!!
Viva Voce (25 Feb)
Ok, I am the 3rd person for VIVA. Faint~~~ I am so going to be super nervous...
NUH Dinner & Dance (26 Feb)
LSCT Diner & Dance (26 Feb)

Nah~ There seems to be alot of things to be completed. No time liao, chiong ah! Exam mode!

Oh ya, I am going to apply for NUH temp staff... see if it works well ba!

Hello world, I am back!

2010-01-26T22:25:00.001+08:00

Oh yea, I went for dance session just now.
Although I am still not-very-stable but I still managed to smoke through the session.
Happy~ =)
I still cannot bend my left leg very well and do swift turns or jumps... Jia you^3
I did the guys and girls part with Marcus... hehe, luckily he's a ninja, can catch me on time. Oh ya, and lucky that I never fall down and crush him. I try to be careful ok!!!I still need to build up courage for the turning part...haha!!
Haha, but I am still happy!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
At least things are going back to normal...

BIG SMILE
=D

小病是福

2010-01-25T01:25:00.002+08:00

脚脚受伤之后有受到多人的关心
虽然脚痛痛的，但是心是甜甜的！
家人和朋友们是最大的支持
感谢大家的关心，我好多了

从这次事件，我学会更疼自己，
珍惜家人的爱，更加爱惜健康
铁齿("ti-ki" in Hokkien)的我，以前生病时都坚持不吃药，自讨苦吃
现在呢，小小不舒服就会乖乖的去看医生，按时吃药，好好休息
超级讨厌喝牛奶的我为了自己的健康而开始试着接受牛奶
其实，也没有那么难喝啦！

可能是在家没事做，一直胡思乱想，所以有些事也“看开”了
现在的我便得更容易开心了，是件好事！

But...虽然小病是福这句话一点也没错，

但是还是祝大家身体健康，因为生病真的有点痛苦！

=）

WISP - War and Conflict

2010-01-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

Still working on WISP, but almost done.

Sidetrack:

I want to show off to the world that I have the best mum, yes, the BEST one!

I know I am mean to her at times, but I still loves her. And always!

Guess what? I hurt my knee recently and she's super worried.She paid for all my medical expenses. I did not expect her to do so, cause it is my fault to injure myself. Awwwww! I thought it is mine responsibility to pay for the mess that I created.

Not just that, she recently handed me a stack of loose notes and told me to take cab instead of bus. Awwww... I almost cried. She's afraid that I will be in pain or I will be tired, she don't bear to see me in discomfort and sponsored me a rather (i think so) huge sum to take cab. Initially, I don't want to waste her money, for one or two occasions, I secretly took the bus instead. I cannot keep secret, so I told her the truth. She got upset, and I was even more sad. I understand her inrention, but at the same time, I don't want her to be so 辛苦 too. I don't want to spend her hard-earned money in this way. It's mine responsibility, so I should be paying instead of her. You know what, cab fare is not cheap. Subcharge, peak hour charges, ERP...I spend $40 alone on cab fare to NUH and back home today. What about yesterday and the day before and all these days... it all adds up to quite a big sum of transportation fare. I am so guilty... Imagine, mum was squeezing onto the bus to get to work while I was sleeping in the cab comfortably. ='( I must get well soon, for myself and for everyone who cares about me. I am very 辛苦and 不舒服... and I don't wish anyone to be in the same state as me...

Mummy, thanks for your love =) I am so blessed to be your child. Love ya!

Day #6 - =)

2010-01-21T18:22:00.000+08:00

I am high!!! Muah ha ha...

1) I am back! So happy to see my friends again. Happy~ But the downside is that I am situated in the Blood Bank, thus, I have to stand for the afternoon session. My knee is hurting~~ I popped a couple of painkillers (the one with stronger dose) but it is still hurting. Crap! I wonder how can I go home later. Argh~

2) I finally got my common test results. Muah ha ha for the second time. After days of worrying, it finally ended off in a happier note! Actually I scored wayyyy better than I had imagine. I thought that I will get about 60/90, but in fact, I got ??/90! YAY!

I must say something... It's true that exam is about hardwork but, it also requires some luck (or rather, alot of luck). I am not a super bright student, I just happen to have better luck. Or somehow, I can pretty much guess which type of questions will come up for exams. Seriously, I cannot memorise the notes from head to toe. I just use selective and pictorial memory. I spend alot of time on understanding rather than remembering (hm, ratio of 7:3)... Somehow, the essay questions that came out happened to be what I know...so, yea super lucky! For those who did not score well, don't be upset ok! Jia you and jia more you! You can do it!!!

3) I feel like joining the dance, maybe next week or something, depending on my condition. BUT, alot of people are stopping me... Nah~ Now sia? Should I or should I not? I want to graduate doing something with my classmates. Awww, I want to go!

4) We finished our WISP! I mean MZ, LQ and ME. And we did something ultra stupid. OMG! Haha! Show the class tomorrow!

5) Ok, Cass, Jac and Elias are crazy! They cannot be grouped together... they are laughing non-stop...OMG!

Day #5 - Double Check

2010-01-20T18:26:00.000+08:00

I went to take Xray just now.

Had a lot of first times recently... First time taking a ride in ambulance, first time admitted to ED, first time taking an Xray, first time seeing doc at polyclinic...blah blah blah

Finally got my diagnosis. Got more painkillers and anti-inflammation drugs. I decided to skip those painkillers cause they are giving me gastric problems. The doc wanted to give me a few more days of MC but I rejected, I want to go back for lessons tomorrow. It is so bored to do nothing at home.

On my report->

Findings: No evidence of fracture or dislocation. The tibiofemoral and patellofemoral knee joints are normal in configuration and alignment. The visualized bones are of normal configuration and density with no focal diffuse bony abnormalities. There is suprapatellar soft tissue density, which may represent a small joint effusion.

Impressions: No evidence of fracture or dislocation.

Hm, it seems that all the major issues are resolved. For the time being, I just need to wait for the swelling to subside. I can already walk "very normally", so I think it will not be a big issue.

See ya peeps!

Day #4 - Scolded

2010-01-19T22:43:00.003+08:00

刚才被一位讨人厌的Aunty骂！
火大！！！
发飙！！！

我从巴士下车，慢慢的走向BPP
身后有个Aunty
为了不挡她的路，我还靠边的走
这时，那个超级无敌没礼貌的Aunty开口大声的说了一句话

“脚这样还要出门...”

而且她的语气很不好...

气死了！关你设么事！
本小姐想去哪里要你批准吗？
我有妨碍到你吗？
我就是要出门，不可以吗？
马路是你家的马吗？

Hng, 我的EQ比你高，不跟你计较！
自己好好检讨吧！

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Sidetrack~

According to MZ-san and LQ-san, common test results are out! OMG OMG OMG! I wonder how I fared. For this particular common test, I seriously flunked the MCQ section, yup I knew it... Haiz~ Really hope that my results can at least maintain and don't drop. Bai tuo, bai tuo. If not, I will be very very sad. So many nasty things had happened to me this year (in lunar calendar) and I am suay to the core, almost reaching the maximum suay-ness. You see huh, my laptop, handphone and multiple earphones spolit... NAPFA test flunked and got myself injured somemore! School stuff -> FYP and other projects were not very smooth... Health wise, erm very very bad. Haiyo~~~ sad, sad, sad, very sad! Small little incidents accummulate and resulted to super bad mood! I need something to cheer me up! =(

哭点very low... small things made me cry. Just now I almost cried when LQ-san told me about her sprained ankle. Out of the blue, I realised that someone really feels what I am feeling... I get stressed up even when I am crossing the road. I am afraid that then green man turns red too fast and I will be knock down by the cars. At the same time, I am afraid that if I increase my pace, I may lost balance and fall. Whenever I reach staircases, I get a little panic. Of course, everyday tasks became super tedious. But, the saddest of all is how the passerby "stares" at me as if I am a monster and gave stupid comments. I tried to not be bothered, but many times, I still take it to heart. =(

Let me reveal a secret... Actually the first 2 days after my injury was one of the worst days of the year. After I came back from the hospital, I went back to my room, off the lights and isolated myself. I tried to sleep but I can't. The scene when I get myself injuried kept replaying (yes, it was freaky)...Actually, I don't even dare to sleep. Consolation by anyone did not work. I just hug my pillow really tight and told myself to calm down. I was super depressed then. The next day was even worst... I felt extremely useless. The kind of helpless-ness made me really sad. Well, as I get better, the moody-ness just disappeared with it. I am ok now, although I am still a little emotional at times... Aiyo, bare with me for a while la... Ya, 不要惹我生气，I will 发飙 for sure!

Anyway, I did WISP just now!!! Actually I met my groupmates and had a discussion. Although I did not see them for 2 days, it seems 2 months instead. So happy!!! There seems to be lots of fun going on... Ah~ can't wait to join them!

But

I am not going back for lessons tomorrow. I decided to consult another doctor cause I am a little worried. The pain and swelling subsided quite a bit but I still cannot bend my left leg properly... I wonder if it is normal or not. Better see a doctor to confirm ba. My walking is a little unstable too! I can only walk very slowly (MZ-san and LQ-san saw my snail pace and adviced me to take another day off...LOL), if not, I will sense my bones moving side to side (kind of scary), but just a little. Hope someone can take an X-ray and point out the exact problem instead of me making wild guesses everyday. Is that a muscle cramp, dislocation, fracture, out-of-place liagment or other causes... I promise this will be the last delay... by any means, I will try to get to NUH on thursday.

=)

Day #3 - Walking

2010-01-18T19:30:00.000+08:00

Yippee... on the track of recovery, super high!

I went for a little walk just now and it was manageable

I should be going back for lessons on wednesday...

See ya! =)

Day #2 - Progessing

2010-01-17T14:13:00.000+08:00

好多了，nini 的脚脚好很多了！心情也好多了！谢天谢地！

今天一睡醒就觉得有所不同
下床时比较不痛了
不需要扶东西也可以小走个十来步
看样子，差不多只需要多一个星期就可以好了七七八八
开心！=）

吃了药，一直很想睡觉
这两天一直都在睡大头觉
越睡越累

就这样了。。。
祝我早日康复！

Day #1 - Forgotten

2010-01-16T20:18:00.002+08:00

I almost forgot about my injury as soon as I woke up. Well, I hope that it is a bad dream but it wasn't. Nah~ I almost jumped off the bed (fortunately I did not) and out of the sudden, I feel tightness on the left knee. That is when I started to realise that I am actually injured.

It is still painful (rate it 7 out of 10). I still cannot move much but I can bend slightly better. At some point, I really feel that I am ver handicapped. It took me a really great effort just to get to the toilet and brush my teeth. Simple task like going to pee is so tedious. I almost cried when I was bathing cause I felt so useless...

I need to eat something before taking the medicaion. I was waiting for someone in the house to be awake so that that person can help to bring me food from the kitchen. I waited for 3 hours (which means that I was hungry and painful for 3 hours). Well, my little sis woke up eventually and I asked her (in a very very nice tone although I was not really happy to wait for so long) to get me some food. She kept on saying later, later, later... and stupid me just wait wait wait. Of course, I got very angry after a while and I decided to depend on myself, I hopped with the other leg to get my food. Then, I hopped my way back. Well, the injured knee was painful when I do so.

A while later, my big sis woke up. She didn't saw my injury last night so when she walk passed me, she said "chey, like that only..." =,( I was really hurt. So you expected me to become paralyzed? Or why not you become the one with the injury and tell me what will you feel. You asked why am I so sad and let me tell you why, it's because everyone is so selfish, insensible and irritating.

It doesnt help when people around me started to throw in insensible comments. I was hungry, in pain and sad. I tried so hard to held back my tears but it rushed down. One incccident adding onto another, I had a complete meltdown. Do you people think that I enjoy in this state? I am already very very very (extremely) sad about the injuy. It may take you 10 secs to reach the kitchen but it will take me very long and risk my injured knee to get more serious. Can't your just help me? Damn... Can you put yourselves in my situation and think twice? And your know what? IT HURTS BADLY...

I really wish to recover. I don't like to depend on the others either. My heartaches when my beloved family members gave insensitive remarks. I thought they understand me the best, I thought that they will help, but I was wrong. Crap!

Today is the first time I actually cried due to the injury. My classmates said that I am strong but I a really not. I am just acting as if I am. I need to do so because I don't want people to be worried...I tried my best to conceal my feelings...I just want to recover!!!

Ok, just feeling a little down... I am oversensitive ba. Actually my family members really care for me =)

天啊，怎么这种鸟事发生在我身上！不可思议！

2010-01-15T21:10:00.001+08:00

Ultimately sad
I don't know what's the problem... no signs

I was shocked

I remembered that I did not attempted to do any stunts

I was just standing and raising up my hands and do the muscle man move (the one after Kodomo)

I did not even move my legs

Then, felt something unusual

It all happened within seonds, in front of soooooo many people

It was super malu
Now the whole world knows (OMG, faint! NP to NUH to extended relatives)
Ah.............I want to get well again and dance with the class!

(PS, it hurts!)

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Anyway, thanks for concern

Sorry to freak out so many people
Esp to YH, Elias and Sooria... thanks for being there
Also to my classmates, thank for concern and help so so much.
Caused alot of people to worry, paiseh ah!

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In case you are wondering what had happened

I was discharged from ED
Doc said that it was no likely to be fracture/dislocation/bleeding...
Basically bandaged up, gave painkillers and went home.
I really don't know the cause...zzz
I am given 3 days MC
Currently on painkillers
Should be well within 1 week

Currently, I can feel that the pain slowly intensifies. I cannot walk faster than snails... -___-"

大家都生病了

2010-01-15T10:34:00.000+08:00

作天一睡就睡了十二个小时
可是还有种好累的感觉

我最近生病了!
朋友们也一个个的变成病猫
大该是最近的病毒都很厉害吧

Hai...

祝大伙儿早日康复
多喝水，多休息
对了，还要多多运动!

:)

Haem is ending...

2010-01-13T23:39:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is the last day for haem!!! But there's a test before the offical ending...

What's up today? - 10 random facts

I did all the wrong things that I can do for the mock test today. ZZZ, hopefully things will not be the same tomorrow.
I am super duper tired. Lack of sleep!
I think I am falling sick (which explains the previous point)
I witness the procedure for collecting bone marrow (nah~ it wasn't scary la)
I engaged my classmates to play "CopyCat"
I slept soundly in bus
I ate Mee Siam after much temptation. (I think my threshold for spicy food dropped, I can't even handle Malay food)
I was not late for lab
My butt aches...
I had yet to study for haem test

Sign off =)

Shake shake shake...

2010-01-13T00:10:00.003+08:00

Today's agenda was slightly packed.

The day started off with IM presentations @ 8.30am, followed by a series of very lengthy lectures. Ok, I was late, and it was really late. I reached NUH @ 9am. I think if OSK knows that, she will hammer me =X To those who always complain the I am "always late", please think again. I really really wake up earlier and tried to get out of the house early too. But the problem is with the bus and traffic. I can wait up to 20 mins for a bus that has enough room for me to be squeeze into and the traffic maybe hell crazy. I need to pass through 3 major jams (most of the time) before I can reach my destination. Anyway, I promise that I will resolve the issue. Jia you ba!

Then we had a little 10 mins haem tutorial. I was in lalaland by then. Super tired.

Went to NP for a compulsory career talk. Hehe, actually I think the talk is quite fun =)

Continued with a out of the blue dance session. Alamak la, cannot make it... the steps are super fast. Or rather, the tempo is very fast. I guess we need more practice. But the dance is so cute...haha, will be nice if the whole class can "act cute" and dance together... (PS, Wang Qin likes M字腿... LOL) oh ya, I think I automatically fell into the unglam cohort once again...tsk!

Sneak Preview (from Marcus' nano)

Ok, now I am super tired. Peng san-ed! Tomorrow have haem mock test =(

{By the way, I had remove some very inactive blog links...}

Itchy itchy scratchy scratchy...

2010-01-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

Very soon, my eyes will pop out from the socket... LOL, just kidding.

Anyway, I think my eyes (yes, both) were irritated by some unknown sources and I could not help but to keep on rubbing them. Argh, I have bloodshot eyes now! I used the eyewash to ease the itchness but it did not seems to work well. Nah~ =(

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I like Prof Koay!!! Er, in some sense. She stood up for herself and point fingers at what is wrong. She even risked offending the fellow staff. But I admire her daring-ness! I salute you!

Open House 2010

2010-01-09T17:25:00.001+08:00

Open House Friday Afternoon Shift

Dr Lim & the girls

F4... LOL

Li Qi and Me

My new BF, Prof Bony

I love Li Qi's camera... the dual LCD screen is so super fun. On top of that, the beauty mode is really fantastic!

D AND D

2010-01-08T08:03:00.000+08:00

I have 2 D&D to attend to mark my graduation...

- PS: Need to reherse a "sexydance" for one of the D&D. OMG...faint!

Back to school

2010-01-03T21:50:00.002+08:00

My holiday will end in a few hours time =( I am going back to school tomorrow.

But the good thing is... school will end in 2 short months, GRADUATION is coming real soon. OMG OMG OMG, I can't believe it. It's 3 years but to me, it is as if 3 months. Time files like rocket.

So, for the time being I shall hang on!!!

Jia you!
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Sidetrack, bad dream. I dreamt of something scary just now. In the dream, I scored 7/40 for a major exam. OMG, hopefully that's not my common test result. Bad omen, wonder if it will happen...OMG, shall not think about it, it's too scary.

Welcome 2010

2010-01-02T01:00:00.002+08:00

I am a days late, but still

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

=) Have a great year ahead!!!

(*Not forgetting my favourite quote: HAPPY NEW YEAR PULL YOUR EAR!!!) - LOL -__-"

Bye 2009, a new start!

2009-12-31T17:20:00.001+08:00

Last day of 2009.

In summary, 2009 wasn't really smooth year. The first 6 months was alright, but the next 6 months was alot of trouble and frustration. Well, I am still surviving so it's ok. It's true that bad moments made me stronger.

10 random facts in 2009

I did alot of cooking. Hehe, I am not so "大小姐" afterall I cook most of my lunch when I am at home because I am lazy to go out of my house. LOL. I can make nice food too!
I bought a new phone... Yippee, my old one was OMG!
I watched alot (and I mean really alot) of movie/serial drama. Yes, I wasted alot of precious time on that but I enjoy the process. So, who cares, I will continue to watch more! =) --- random fact: I finished had just watching 82 episodes of <<珠光宝气>> OMG, POWER!
I can no longer communicate with my grandma. Her condition is way beyond bad and my family also suffered from that. Right now, I think she cannot recognise people around her and have some trouble communicating. Long story... I just hope that her condition can improve and our relationship will not be so strained.
I lost weight!!! Ok la, 1 or 2 kg only, not big deal. Finally manage to shed that last 2 kg and go back to my year 1's weight. But hor, I still think that my arms are really flabby... Shall work on that. For some unknown reasons, I suspect that my face is growing bigger...LOL. I am not sure about that, it is a fact or illusion???
I am still single, no boyfriend sia!!! LOL (just kidding!!!)
I started eating 拌饭 (bibimbab) very frequently and I really fell in love with it. I think I can survive eating only 拌饭 for 2 weeks. Can try next time!
My complexion went bad to worst and now, slowly getting better. It's another long story. Yea, my face is very 姑娘... very sensitive sia, which is also very irritating. I must use the very mild products which are slightly more expensive.Not only that, I need to use sunblock and stuff to shield my face from the harmful UV rays or else there will be breakups again ='( Well, I am still hopefull that it will get better. Go, jia you~
It seems that I am easily pissed off with small things. My threshold level kind of drop dramatically. Er, I don't think I had change but I think that there are just more and more stimulus to irritate me nowadays. Yea, so many things to become irritated. Grrr... roar, go away!!!
Last one. I will post more pictures on my blog. I feel that it is getting slightly boring. I will try to be more 自恋in order to do so...hehe! Vain sia!!

With anticipation, let's welcome 2010. It's going to be a better year ahead. Some important things that I must remember to do:

Drink lots of water
Keep smiling, stop whining
Save time for family and friends
Pamper myself occasionally
Have more patience

Phone Review

2009-12-26T20:07:00.006+08:00

This post will be a phone review post since there are quite alot of people asking me about my views about my new phone. It's a HTC Tattoo. I had been using it for slightly more than a month and I am rather happy with it.

Likes:

1) This phone runs on Google Android Operating System, which is kind of nice. There are lots of applications avaliable on Google Market for download. Most importantly, the interface is user friendly. (Yes, even my mum knows how to use it and she's happily playing the games now)

2) The main reason that I bought the phone is because thatI like the layout. Hehe, unlike the other phones, Tattoo is highly customizable!!! Yay, this means that I can really have what I want my layout to look like.

3) Another point on customizing, you can tattoo your TATTOO. The service is provided by garskin where I can customize a hardcover for the phone the way I like it. It is so super cool. In this way, my phone will be unique and different from the others.

4) Budget-conscious. This phone is super cheap for what it has. For me, it cost less than $50 dollars =)

5) 3.5mm headphone jack is a big thumbs up. Now, I don't need to bring 2 different sets of earphone for my phone and ipod.

6)The phone has WIFI, I can practically log in to facebook and check my email anywhere, anytime. Hehe, I also blogged my last post from the phone.

7)The green robot = cute!!!

Dislikes:
1) Sadly, the device has a lousy camera. It's a very basic 3.2 Megapixel camera without flash. (Nvm, I have my camera to replace that)

2) Bluetooth file exchange is not avaliable too. =(

In summary:

I am still quite contented with what I have. Highly recommanded! It's really value for money. It is a phone that is wayyyyy better than my previous one. Glad that my phone actually broke down out of no where and therefore I have this new baby to play with... Hehe =) No major hiccups yet, still very nice and obedient! Fantabulous!!!

let's get the party started

2009-12-25T02:04:00.001+08:00

23 Dec was a getaway for the m06 girls. It was actually a birthday celebration for the 2 pretty girls, mz ans raph. So, the day started with a cake decoration session @ the icing room. It was actually quite fun. Hehe, gonna do it again. Yup, then we went to the mushroom pot for a very filling dinner and end off the night (with jasmine and company) with loud music, alcoholic drinks, crazy dancing and lots of wildness. Well, with the right company, nothing can go wrong!! The only unhappy thing is that i was a little sickish (still go partying sia).

That is about all...see ya.

Merry chrisrmas & happy new year. :)

It's tomorrow!!!

2009-12-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

That's it, seating for my 4th 3-in-1 common test, the last common test in my poly life. Yay!!!

But,

I know very well that the paper will not be an easy one. The topics are really difficult when comparing to the previous tests. I think I really need alot of luck just to pass, I am not even aiming high. Well, hope everything will go in the right direction ba. Most importantly, I hope that I can finish my paper on time and don't make stupid mistakes. Read the questions properly! Good luck!!!

98% dead

2009-12-16T18:02:00.006+08:00

Oh no!! I feel that I am 98% dead for the exams (another 2% where miracles happen).

Ok, seriously, this is one of the very few occassions that I really feel GG for exams. Sad!

Most of the times, I will feel stressed. Simply because I roughly knows the amount of stuff that I have to cramp in my punny brain with the time limit. It is an issue on time scarcity rather than not understanding the lectures.

This time round, I really don't know what to expect for the common test. That's why I am not even stress. I am so GG.

Molecular Diagnostics: It's a big big module and to make things worst, this module will not be easy. There are lots of theory involved, lots of chim chim words that are very similar but different and lots of techniques involved. I doubt I can remember them all. From extraction till detection, there are like 5 thoudsand procedures. Just mutation analysis alone, we have more than a dozen techniques to go through.

For example: PCR-RFLP, allele-specific PCR, reverse dot polt, Denaturing Gradient Gel Electrophoresis, Single Stranded Conformation Polymorphism, Heteroduplex analysis, Southern hybridisation, direct sequencing, Light cycler (real-time PCR), Floresence In-Situ Hybridisation, Mircoarrays...... Faint right? Yea, and what I listed was just from 1 (actually it's only from a few slides) of the 9 examinable lectures.

Anyway, I do like MD, it is a super interesting topic to start off. But all the overwhelming information just kills the fun. Nah~~~ I practically have to google everything to make sure that the facts are correct and understandable.

Lab Management: Ok, clearly, it's not my cup of tea. There are just too many administrative work involved, not interesting at all. Besides that, it still goes back to QC to QA, method evalutaion, calibrations, reagents... westguard rule (OMG) blah blah blah, those lecture that everyone practically doze off instantaneously back in year 2. I know it is one of the important aspects of lab but I just don't understand why there must be a "standard model answers" we must study for. Everyone thinks differently, why should we be "trained" to follow the "model answers" and sometimes, it doesn't make sense. Somehow, it just reminded me the tutorial session that we had, yea, should not probe into that matter. Yup, all the fundermental theories must be right.

For example: QC is not a check for accuracy, it is more a check for functionality and errors. 2 main types of QC are avaliable, with or without pretreatment. The first one test for possible errors in the analysers but the second one can test for technical errors and human errors. . To check for accuracy, usually EQAS or PT is invovled instead (yea, I hope that it's not wrong...).

Endocrine: Out of the 3, this is the most understandable topic. Basically positive/negative feedback mechansim for the hypothalamus-pituitary hormones. Know the hormones from the anterior and posterior pituitary gland : Adrenalcorticotropic Hormone, Follicle Sitmulating Hormone, Luteinizing Hormone, Growth horomes, Anti Diuretic Hormone, Oxytocin, Progesterone, Oestrogen, Testosterone.......pretty straight forward module. The problems are mainly due to the lab tests for each disorders, need to know the sitmulation/suppression tests which maybe difficult to grasp and remember.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG^200 times. I hope that I can get more info into my brain, I hope that I can understand my topics better. I hope that I can regain the joy/fun/interest for the nasty topics.

To all of my classmates, good luck! See you on Friday!

FIGHTING~

2009-12-13T13:47:00.002+08:00

It's EXAM PERIOD.

Jia you everyone =)

Yea, still kicking

2009-12-10T01:54:00.001+08:00

Progressive busy. Last week was bad, this week is slightly worst, next week will be another nightmare. Oh well, I anticipate graduation. I am feeling a little down, just a little.Why? Simpily because the A lvl peeps are gaining their freedom so as the Uni peeps and poly peeps from the other courses. My school life is still in a mass. I have piles of notes waiting patiently for me to go through but I am just to occupied to do so. Sad, I wish for a little more time.

Sidetrack: I don't understand lab management. The theory was ok, but the applications don't make sense. I wonder if it is me or everyone feels the same way too. Neverrmind, shall leave that alone for the time being.

Status: Micro lab test tomorrow. Another pile of notes to go through. Hopefully I can finish the paper "before time" and not "on time". Haha!

Updates: I completed my presentations for IM, all 3 within 2 sessions. Phew, I know it was not perfect presentations but I did tried to simplify and explain the complicated parts. I hope my classmates knows what I am saying.

Comments: I fell in love witth Patricia!!! Haha, she's my model classmate and made me so touched. She went the extra mile to help me and it just warms my sucky days. ♥♥♥♥♥

Anticipating: Christmas is coming soon!!! So as my long-awaited mid sem break.

To everyone that 不看好我

2009-12-07T23:27:00.001+08:00

I have a battle tomorrow, and I am going to prove everyone that I can do it!
I shall not let my groupmates down!
I shall not let me down!
I will survive the ordeal!

Jia you X3!

Have faith! I believe in myself!
(By the way, thanks for all the bullshits. It strives me to become STRONGER!)

我不开心!

2009-12-04T01:24:00.004+08:00

我不开心!

Tired, lack of sleep, stressed, irritated. I am super tired. My eyes are super dry and super uncomfortable. My eyelids are heavy and eyebags are even worst. I am damn sleepy!

I am trying not to procrastinate about this issue but it just kind of bothers me.

Last week, being I had a taste of being “superlady”. I had 24 questions on lab endocrine to do and to revise. On top of that, I still have to complete not 1 but 2 IM presentations. I admit that I did not did quite well for chemistry IM and I am need to apologise my group. I had divided attention to juggle between haematology and chemistry. Sorry =( Anyway, that was a busy busy week but I survived.

This week, history will repeat (or had already repeated). Haematology IM presentation is postponed and it clash with my Microbiology IM presentation and lab management test. Idiot! Crap! Know what, I am super pissed off. I don’t want to argue with her but I am actually very irritated by the fact that we are only notified the postpone thingy on the day itself.

TO Ms “S”: HELLO!!! WE HAD EMAIL-ED you LONG LONG ago and YOU are the one who DID NOT REPLY US. WHY IT IS OUR FAULT AGAIN? WHY SHOULD WE BE SCOLDED DUE TO YOUR INCAPABILITY? It doesn’t make any sense. IF YOU ARE PISSED OFF WITH Ms “O”, THAT’S YOUR BUSINESS! TOO BAD, YOUR JOB IS TO COLLATE OUT TIMETABLE AND YOU JUST HAVE TO DO IT.

BY THE WAY, WHY IS OUR TIMETABLE OUT ON THURSDAY? SO YOU EXPECT US TO LIVE THROUGH THE WEEK HAPPILY AND SCARE OURSELVES TO DEATH WHEN WE RECEIVE YOUR “UPDATED” TIMETABLE, KNOWING THAT THE PRESENTATION IS DUE IN A FEW DAYS AND WE HAVE TO SPEND OUR WEEKENDS OUT TO DO THEM. YOU THINK EVERYONE IS SO FREE?

Yes. I am pissed. Don’t want to talk to her anymore. Attitude problem, no point talking. As I said many times, she is making her life easy by making others’ lives difficult. Screw! According to the MES, year 2 peeps are HAPPY, while year 3 peeps are not. Totally agree!!! My sem 3.2 is really screwed.

Oh, back to the IM presentation issue. Ok, I need to apologise to all 3 teams (includes, YL, Sahidah, Arfah, JX, Cass & Henry) for the irresponsible-ness at times. I have trouble coping with the teams as the discussion days happen to fall on the same time and I cannot divide myself equally amongst you guys. Yup, I also admit bad attitude sometimes. Sorry, just that I am stressed. Sorry, sorry, sorry, very very sorry! I am super guilty about that. =( I really don't mean it.

School stuffs annoyed me and so as personal life. Crap!!! Don't want to elaborate. Just too many selfish people around. =(

I just hope that all the nightmare will disappear. By the way, I will slog myself over the weekends. Micro test is also coming, just 2 days after my nightmare day. Well, I know I can do it and make things work! Jia you!!!

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On a lighter note, share a joke with you people...

Cass, Henry and Rui Ning were doing IM presentation slides.

Cass: Eh, this one (one of the slides) under where huh, under where ???
Rui Ning: Huh, UNDERWEAR???
Henry: UNDERWEAR???
Everyone: Burst into laughters... LOL

至理名言

2009-12-03T01:19:00.000+08:00

大家好，让我分享一句至理名言：《塞翁失马焉知非福》aka blessing in disguise.

这句话是许棉桩（不好意思，不知名字写得对不对）妹妹用来安慰我的。真是非常贴切。

不要难过喔，一切都ok的！

Random thoughts

2009-12-01T03:16:00.000+08:00

Hey, it's me again. I feel like blogging again. Here I come!

Clocking in @ 2.30am. It's ok, chill~ I know it is late. I had my nap already, which explains why I am still awake and very awake. Well, I am not a "day" person and my biological clock follows that too. I have this sleeping disorder that I will wake up appox every 3 hours so it makes more sense to have multiple naps rather than one-time sleeping routine. To me, it is also better. I feel more energetic and adequately rested. Seriously, my brain works better at night, that's fact. Work efficiency is 10 times better at night. I like NIGHTS as average temperature is lower (comfy, less frustration). Besides, it is so much quieter (allows me to concentrate so much better).

I was browsing through my previous posts and I discovered that I am always writing about unhappy episodes. Pardon me for that can’t help either. Sometimes, there are somethings that you just don’t want to talk about. Procrastinating can be unhealthy, but keeping so many unhappy things within myself is worst. So, yea too bad, no choice.

I just discovered that I am damn “suay” recently. Is that 犯太岁 ?? I don’t know leh, but I think I must go temple pray pray or use pomelo leaves to bath. Maybe it is psychological, just wanting to have a peace of mind. So frustrated about lots of things recently, need a better mood. Huat ah! Going back to the mood issue, actually I am fine la. Haha! I am not “that unhappy”, I just love to complain.

This few weeks made me to realised how "loved" I am. Er, I meant in family context, not what you are imagining. Sometimes I think that I am too pampered, too well-protected, too spoilt. At some point of time, I feel that I need to be more sensible instead, be like a grown-up. I think it is a family culture thingy, my mum just did almost everything for me. Yes, I am guilty. She gave me almost everything I wanted and had heart-to-heart sessions with me whenever I am down. She is the only person that encourages me and support every decision that I made. *oh man, i feel like crying* Yup, I think I 撒娇-ed too much, need to tone down on that. Need to be more mature.

Words of wisdom : It's not what I can gain from people, it's what I can give them

Yea, time to grow up!

[Just for info: as for the 撒娇 matter, I think most parents will surrender. It's just a far too powerful method, works 99.9% all the time. Of course, it's a tool that you must use wisely, at the right time with the right atmosphere, if not it is just useless.]

=(

2009-11-30T23:26:00.001+08:00

Sad sad sad, my laptop CANNOT MAKE IT LIAO!!!

Pretty nasty right? I cannot open or close my screen now. There also seems to be a hairline crack on the LCD screen. I roughly know what caused the tragedy, but don't know who the culprit is. I will call Acer tomorrow and see how it goes. Hope that they can do something about it.

Mourning~~~

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Anyway, went to watch Case 39 earlier today. It's an eerie movie and the suspense/atmosphere is really horrifying. Had a nice scare. Well, I rate 3.8/5.0 popcorns.

Yup, my mind was completely empty while I was doing my 1 min presentation just now.Zzz, actually I am very nervous but I didn't show that (good acting huh!). Made a deadly mistake sia, lucky that no many people realised that. Hehe!!!

I have 2 more presentations tomorrow (one after another). Hope that I can remember the points and pray hard that everything goes well. No hiccups!

Jia you for tml!!! I can do it!

Complain Queen

2009-11-28T03:23:00.004+08:00

I just finish the 24 questions on lab endocrine and I need to destress now. Blogging ~

Well, I want to complain!!!

BLT course is really badly managed and it really sucks. This is not the first time and without doubt, it will not be the last time too. Argh! The worst thing is that nobody really cares about it. =(

Because of the poor management, my group have to complete a Haem presentation and still uncertain whether our group will be presenting or not. Crap! Zzz, never replied our email. Hari Raya holiday is a gone case. =(

I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!! (but to who?)

Seriously, no point complaining to "her". "She" is best at arguing and giving stupid excuses. Complaining just don't work in BLT. Slogging and mugging are better choices. "Slience is golden" -> True in BLT context.

The famous quotes by XXX:

"I give, you take!"
"It's your problem, not mine!"
"So what?!"

Oh wells, that's total rubbish!!! Come on, we are not ROBOTS!

Just gonna bear with it and walk through the disasters alive. Well, it's approximately another 2 months to Lala land and I CAN DO IT! Jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, NOS! Busy busy (Updated)

2009-11-27T15:45:00.004+08:00

Yea, expecting quite alot of busy-ness this 2 months. Anyway, it will be 2 more months to graduation, so just give the best shot! Of course, life is not about all work and no fun. A balance in between is good. So, besides being busy, I had a fun fun week too. =)

Tuesday was a fun day but physical demanding day. You see, I had not do some serious exercise for a long time. But, I went for Polympics (netball)!!! OMG, I can't believe it either. Team BLT 19 lost, and lost badly. Haha, we scored 1 point out of a total of 5 games, super lousy la! But it was the fun that matters, I had lots of fun anyway. The fun was being rough and shouting. LOL. I was pushed by all the tall tall people and in the end, I pushed them too, revenge!!! No choice lor, they are super rough so I need to be a little more violent to protect myself. =)

Yesterday was a slack day. Nothing much la, just went through the URT/LRT infection stuffs in the morning and had mycology afternoon. Sooria drove the gang to Holland Village for lunch, yay! Ok, I must say the driving was a little "unexpected" and "very sudden". The breaking was kind of "rough". LOL. It's a fun experience anyway. =)

The highlight of the day was that we did a little "self-project". We gram stained Yakult and examined the lactobacillus. Ok people, if you are wondering, it's a gram postive rod. Our smear is rather thick la, so there's a pinkish backgroound.

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*Updated!*

Status Check:
1) Endocrine Questions - Stage 1 clear with the help of some classmate. Stage 2 starting soon... gonna clear all questions and doubts by tonight. Studying tomorrow.
2) Haem presentation - Almost almost. Meeting tomorrow to finalize. Yet to prepare script.
3) Chem presentation - PPT finalized. Need some minor refinements before presentation. Yet to prepare script (all those sensitivity, specificity and ROC thingy... OMG, faint!)
4) Micro presentation - far from finishing, PPT about 50% done. Many things to figure out... tsk tsk. Need to meet up and discuss soon.

Back for more updates, stay tune!

Baby~

2009-11-23T22:16:00.001+08:00

Yay, I got myself a "new baby" after my "old baby" died. It's a HTC Tattoo this time round.

I recieved some comments that says the phone is "very not me"... Haha, yup agree. I bought the phone after a few minutes of consideration and it is certain not "my type". But who cares, I need to try out new things.

Regarding the price issue, I think 30 million people are very interested and suprised that I bought the phone at such a cheap price. Yes, I did, I can show your the reciept ok! Actually, it's partly due to the Christmas promotion and signing up for multiple plan. I did not upgrade my plan, it is still the very normal student plan thingy. You guys can check it out.

My verdict? Erm, after 24 hours of use, I shall say that the phone is a good buy la. Cheap and nice. I bought the phone mainly due to the fact that HTC phones have nice layout and it is highly customizable (i don't know is there such a word???).I like the format and bulit in applications. Plus the fact that I can design my own Hp cover, cool! Touchscreen is not super sensitive (which is good!!!) but still very responsive. I am still figuring out la, but it is good enough for me (i am not very gadget-savy, acutally quite noob).

Lala, happy =)

Anyway, netball competition tomorrow! Good luck to team BLT 19.

Attempt to clear up assignments

2009-11-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

Yay... I completed 2 major tasks.

1. WISP - Female Inequality Presentation

2. Routine Chem Lab Questions - Finally... Printed and Done! (what the....it is 10 pages ok!!)

Weekends

2009-11-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

It's a fruitful weekend this time round, yay!
I did lots and lots of things ok!!

1. I cleared up my study area – it was super scary before that. Spent the entire night cleaning up, tired sia!

2. I watch 12 episodes of 幸福的抉择 – as usual, I start off from the front and the back. I managed to catch episodes 1-10 plus 18-20. Hm, quite a nice show so far, quite sad too.

3. I did my routine chemistry tutorial questions – Yea, I did ok! It is like 90% done now, so happy. Finally~~~

4. Phone fishing – My handphone really cannot make it. So, I spent quite alot of time online looking for a good and reasonable priced phone. Nah, cannot decide yet. Anyway suggestions?

5. Slept quite alot too (-.-“)

6. Was having karaoke session just now, hehe!
Yup, that’s about it.
Back to school for loooooooooooooong lectures tomorrow. Good luck!

(BTW, my mei mei likes to press super hard on my big big bruise, keep threatening me. Zzz, super painful sia!)

生病了

2009-11-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

大家好！

最近一切都超不顺心的，有点小小难过。

好久没有生病的我不知为何病倒了。
发烧，伤风，恶心想吐，好难受啊！
希望快快好起来，快点恢复体力。

这几天都没有胃口，想吃嘛嘛（妈妈）做的爱心粥。
好巧的是嘛嘛不在家，出国去玩了！
嗨...... 真是的。

Long long day...

2009-11-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today should be a short lecture day but it ended rather late. Did serious WISP discussion and had some argument with the guys in the student room. Pretty interesting though. Besides, I have 1 complain. Traffic was crazy at about 6pm. There were jams everywhere and anywhere. I was lucky to get a seat and slept soundly throughout the bus journey. Yea, you can tell that I am freaking tired (had only slept for 4 hours the night before).

Another funny incident to blog about -> HYPOTHYROIDISM. Haha, everyone was making fun of me as I fitted nicely into the clinical presentations for hypothyroidism. Slow, tired, cold intolerance blah blah blah... plus the fact that I don’t really eat seafood. Nah~~~ I don’t think I have it la, my TSH and Free T4 should be quite normal lor. Hehe!

Last thing, I sadly announced another item to be included in my gadgets’ graveyard -> MY HANDPHONE! Let’s moan for 3 secs. Crap, why am I spoiling so many things? Sadded =( So peeps, you can call me if you want but I cannot hear your voices. Aiya, just send me sms to save the trouble. Thanks, greatly appreciated!

Ok, I am back to the projects. See ya!

I try to be early, OK?!

2009-11-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

Lecture starts at 8.30 am tomorrow.

Ok, let me promise that I will make an effort to reach earlier. Well, most of the time it is not up to what I want. The traffic is extremely unpredictable and crazy. But but but, I will do my best to reach on time.

Happy Eating & Week 3 status

2009-11-08T03:37:00.001+08:00

If you have noticed, it's already the weeeee hours (~3am). You must be wondering why I am still awake. Actually, it was a mistake. I should not have slept so many hours and drank so much green tea just now. Erm, oh, ok! Anyway, that's not important.

I admit that I am sinful for eating quite alot recently (which, explains my emerging double-chin...lol, kidding). Due to some unforeseen circumstances, I am eating too much junk food. Nah~ =( I need to go exercise liao. As shown in the picture, I help myself to lots of spicy drumlets and pizza just now. Opps.

But seriously, my health had changed drastically mainly due to the changing eating habits. During my upper sec days, I fell sick once every two weeks. Crap, kind of irritating. It was affecting my life as I felt lethargic and restless most of the time. Going to poly is a change of lifestyle to me, mainly because I am now more relaxed and eating better. Well, the concrete evidence is the gain of weight. Yes, it also reflecting on my everyday life. Now, I probably get ill once in a blue moon with minor illnesses. Hehe, HAPPY!!! So you can also try. Perhaps, try to increase your water and fruit intake (yea, it is super important and it shows). In addition, try to sleep adequetly!! Nothing is more important than good health isn’t it?

Oh yup, I need to report my current status. It’s now about 3 weeks since the start of the new semester and I can sense the “busy-ness”. You see, I have 3 major presentations for IM and presentation for my WISP module (Gender Inequality, any suggestions??) coming up next week. Definitely, I sensed the heat! It’s going to be another busy busy week ahead.

Furthermore, there’s some “drama” going on this week which is getting onto my nerves (I think mz and patricia knows what I am referring to...) Ok, I shall not reveal the details. Anyway, good luck to me!!! “Drama”, please go away....shooooooooooo!

Sidetrack, I met a couple of familiar faces recently... This includes the m06 girls (Queenie and Peizi), Dr Tan (haha, still the old him, but seems that he is getting slimmer and more “famous”, lol) and sec school friends (Liyana, Shi ting, Yvonne, yi Hui and Jessica) plus birthday boy cum future doctor -> You Chuen =)

Going for beauty sleep... see ya!

Celebration

2009-11-05T01:07:00.002+08:00

Advance birthday celebration for You Chuen =)

(Photo credit: LIYANA!)

Okok, I am super exhausted. I used up all my brain cells and energy. I will be back to update more about today. See ya!

Friday's Photo (30 Oct)

2009-11-01T16:49:00.005+08:00

Bioinfomatics Practical

Mee Zhen said that she likes her look in the pic.. lol ( i look odd lor)

Board Gaming @ Ourspace

Cluedo

Miss Scarlet

New Blog Skin

2009-11-01T16:44:00.002+08:00

Test test test...

Yay, new skin!!! Lots of reformating and editing...

Anyway, my previous skin have some problems so I changed to the current one. I like the way it looks, simple and nice =)

Blogging in Chinese #2

2009-10-31T23:46:00.005+08:00

大家好，又到了华文博客时间了。

首先，祝大家万圣节快乐！（其实也已经过了...）

今天没有上学也没有人约，所以赖在家里当个懒惰虫。哈哈！^v^
我觉得自己好幸福啊~
一睡醒就有好料吃，随口一叫就有饮料喝。
整整一个上午都赖在沙发上，不是上网youtube/facebook就是看电视。
下午无聊没事做时又偷偷去睡了个美人觉。

这种日子真是爽啊！

我喜欢偶尔当当懒惰虫，懒懒散散的过一天... 因为平时都忙着课业，没空好好坐下来享受“时间”。休息了一整天，身心放松了许多，心情超愉快的！=) 大家不妨试试看喔！

这个学期将会比之前的更忙，想必啊可以当懒惰虫的机会越来越少了。突然发现多出了3个project (IM&WISP)。Yea, 该是努力用功读书的时候了。

Another bad bad day =(

2009-10-31T11:31:00.004+08:00

As the title suggest, things did not went well yesterday... pretty unhappy =(

Event #1
My headphone spoilt (like, what!?! Again!!!). Well, it just happened, don't know how, don't know why, but it did. Just a little little annoyed but it did not bother me much as I am pretty used to that. The rate of me spoiling headphones/earphones is equivalent to the rate of people buying contact lenses... it occurs once in few months. It's ok, it just takes another shopping trip to get myself a new one...

Event #2
Well, my laptop just "crack open"...zzz! Again, I don't know how, I don't know why, but it just did. I swear that I did not drop it. I went to school and discovered that fragments are dropping off. The next thing that I realised was that there is a major crack between my monitor. I am quite frustrated at this point. The emotions just built up just now headphone, then laptop, so what's next. Hm, I need to call Acer helpdesk to figure out what's wrong... hope that they can fix my problem...

Event #3
Ok, NAPFA test. I know I am not those athletic type and thus, I didn't aim too high, I just want to pass and that's it. Hence, I went for a trial run and practiced a few of the stations. Well, it wasn't too bad, except for standing broad jump, where I just barely hit the passing mark.

Anyway, it started off well. Completed 3 stations. Next, standing broad jump. The passing mark was 156cm and I always landed around 154cm... another 2cm!!! Crap. I cannot remember now many times I jumped, I just know that it's quite alot, probably 8 times? Eventually, I did passed, and hooray, finally~~~ I was thrilled like XYZ.

Next, off to shuttle run. I think this is where i sensed that my body wasn't right. I know I was running quite slow, but I can't help it. I can't really bend my body and that cause me to run in an awkward manner...

The effect just intensified when I did my 2.4km. I wanted to push myself to run, but my body was pulling my down. I run about 400m and I really cannot take it anymore. So, I walked awhile and tried to run again but the most I managed was 10 steps. I walked all the way after that and it was already difficult. I was really sad then... Imagine, you had tried so hard in order to pass but I the end, you are going to fail because you tried too hard...isn't that frustrating... And you are trying to run, slowly, everyone overtake you, eventually, you are forced to gave up knowing that all the previous efforts are wasted... sad right?

Ok, it was a long story... all the unhappiness just built on top of another and emotions increased exponentially. I did drop a tear or two after the NAPFA test... mostly because I was quite disappointed and angry with myself for pushing too hard for the standing broad jump. Seriously, it's not worth. No big deal la, it was just a moment of "overwhelming emotions", I am ok now.

=) Cheering up =) Failing NAPFA isn't the end of the world!!!

2009-10-26T18:08:00.003+08:00

I went to run today!!!

^v^

And I am super exhausted now...zzz

Anyway, my mum is amused with my tomato face (post-run)

Serious Stuff - Further Studies

2009-10-26T01:21:00.003+08:00

Brochure...booklets...super heavy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (approx 5 kg).LOL!

Ok, so, WJ, JX, Marcus, YL, YH, MZ and I went for the Aussie study fair just now. I shall say that Iam pretty pleased with some unis.

I think I am abit confused and overwhelmed with choices. It is so ironic. When I have no choice, I am kind of disappointed and sad. But when I have so many choices, I am actually quite lost. Zzz! I am left with 1 more semester to the end of poly life. It is about time to ponder on serious stuff - where should I go for further studies???

The fundamental problem is, local or overseas?

Having an average GPA, I don't think I have many choices in local uni. Hm, NUS is definitely out! I cannot do much to salvage the GPA since it's already the final semester. Even if i score a perfect 4.0 this sem (highly impossible), there is still high possibility that I cannot end up in NUS. Most probably, I will end up in NTU if the application goes well. But again, from all the feedback that I had gathered, most of the comments were rather negative.

Well, after much consideration, overseas uni is not a bad alternative. Most likely -> Australia uni. Hm, my GPA is enough to qualify me to most of the related courses. Some generous uni can even provide me with a scholarship!!! The best thing is that most uni allow advance standing about 1 - 1.5 years. With a 1 year advance standing, I will be able to complete a degree with honours within 3.5 years. Yea, sounds that it's a pretty good choice but a 3.5 years education will leave me and my family heavily in debts. Overseas education is super super expensive la! Afterall, we don't have much reserves to start with. =( Yup yup, I am also not prepared to start my life in a foreign land... sob! Not just that, there are so many factors to consider...Zzz!

Well, I consulted my mum and she is open to the idea of overseas education (of course I can sense a little unwilling-ness). She said that she will do what she can to help me with all money matters if I can give her my promise that I will repay the money ASAP. Yea... I am so uncertain. But I must really thank mum for supporting me in whatever choice I will be making.

Whatever la... I will start thinking about my future. =)

Any wise advice?

Closure

2009-10-23T02:48:00.002+08:00

I am super extraordinariy tired... It has been around 2 weeks ever since I had a proper 8 hours good sleep (probably slept for 5 hours per day, sometime 2) Anyway, it's mainly due to FYP but also included other factors. My eyes are super dry and my complexion is super super bad. I need a good sleep tonight. I will update on the FYP presentation thingy sometime later...stay tune!

100% Done...

2009-10-19T03:30:00.004+08:00

Hoooray!!! Report completed! Fireworks!!!

Sneak preview of my FYP report... (the precious "baby" that we have after months of hardwork) hehe =)

YH said "I like our report"
RN said "I also like our report"

Hehe... 2 satisfied faces ^v^

Ok, it's back to school tomorrow... Early!

60% Done

2009-10-18T03:55:00.006+08:00

Dummy Report Coverpage (LOL, just for blogging purpose. Details not ready to be revealed.)

I cannot remember this is number ??? version of FYP report... Make a wild guess, probably should be somewhere around version 15 ba?!? LOL -_-"

Anyway, progress is definitely very good. Within a day, the report is becoming to look like a FYP report. I don't mean that the previous reports do not make sense but sometimes, I don't quite understand what am I writing. Now, I am quite confident that I understand my contents =) The more I write, the more I am in love with my project topic... Hehe! At this point, this Cardiovascular Risks things is really interesting to me. Reading our report again and again, I found that all the hardwork paid off. Quite statisfied actually =)

Ok, the heavier parts are done... What's left are: abstract, m&m and some formatting/editing. Good! Looks like it will reach OSK on time!

Yay, everything is looking good! (though the only bad thing is - tiredness).

Jia you Yii Huan, we can do it!!! The last lap, let's CHIONG ARH!!! ~~~

[Trick of the day: Jay Chou's 稻香 is an inspiring song. If you are overloaded with all the FYP stuffs, take a 5 mins break and tune in to 稻香. Try it!]

NHG Conference

2009-10-17T18:50:00.006+08:00

Free ice-ceam!!!

Li Ting, Me, Patricia, Mee Zhen, Yin Ling, Yii Huan =)

BLT 19 + another 1

As promised, I did put on light makeup... Hehe =) I woke up at 6am to do that okay!!! This is the first time that I appeared with makeup in front of classmates of BLT 19 ok!!! *Shy* ^v^ Luckily it looks fine, light enough, not opera-like. (Material used: moisturizer and aloe vera as the base, concealer, loose powder, and a pat of blush. )

Regarding the shoe issue, ya I know I am unglam la, but for the sake of comfort, who cares! The fact is... I sprained my legs beforehand. So, wearing heels was super uncomfortable. If you ask me why I insisted on wearing heels, hm...perhaps I am vain ba... Nah, the price of beauty. I am really sad with that sprain =(

Yup, I wasn't in a state of good mood for that day la, mainly because of the lack of sleep and PMS mood swing... so sorry for the lethargic-ness...

Bittersweet

2009-10-15T22:24:00.006+08:00

I am so so so tired now but I still want to blog about the hectic week that I had.

Final Year Project - A Bittersweet Process

When I received my project topic months ago, I was super excited. The long awaited FYP has finally arrived! Things appeared to be very exciting and I was looking forward to carry out "my own" experiment. I wanted to do try out "real" research and I am pretty happy to work with a new partner.

Nightmares happened right before abstract submission. Change of title multiple times and had to redo everything again. 4 days to complete the skyhigh amount of work. From experiment to sorting the results and write-up, that as the darkest period of the project. Stayed up at NUH for the longest time ever...slog slog slog...

Few weeks later, we started to do our actual experiment on the adiponectin kit. Things did not work out well too. Adiponectin test had never passed despite all our hardwork. =(

Poster making was frustrating. More than 10 versions of posters had been made. OSK kept rejecting our poster =( Once again, we had to redo and redo. Finally at the eleventh hour, she gave us the "go" permission to submit our poster for the NHG conference. A great relieve, at last, we managed to do a correct thing.

Now, ppt preparation and project writeup. OSK had finally stamped approval for our presentation slide, now it up to us to do all the touching up, memorize stuff and other preparation work. Things just becomes better and better, more praises, less scoldings.

Current status is that we have to rush for the report submission... which is on Monday. Time is a little tight, but hope things can be done smoothly. Giving myself a pat on my shoulder... things are looking bright isn't is? Everything will just turn up fine! Sunshine after rain =)

Tomorrow is the day of NHG conference. =)

[Edited: FYP really thought me alot. It's not just the knowledge but also many other things. FYP taught me how to work with my partner and how to work with my supervisor. It challenged my perseverance and put my breaking point to a test. It allows me to take failure as a stepping stone and work harder for the better. Regardless of the outcome (FYP results), it is an important lesson to me =)]

BLT 19 Chalet

2009-10-10T23:39:00.007+08:00

When: 7 - 9 Oct 2009
Where: NP Loft
Who: Members of BLT 19
What: Nothing much, just chilling out, relaxing. Probably the highlight was the steamboat and teppanyaki on the first night.

Beforehand:
It started off when Yii Huan randomly asked me "are you going to the chalet tomorrow?" and I realised that the chalet is not on next week but tomorrow!!!

Did some shopping with YH, MZ and Marcus for the dinner...

Enviroment:
It was my first stay over at Loft. Wheeeee! Had heard that it a really nice place but yet to experience that. On the overall, I think it is way better than the chalet at Pasir Ris. Mainly because it is more spacious and well equipped. Most importantly, it is free-of-charge, which gives us more budget to do other things.

I think the apartments are quite spacious and simple. Seems like a Condo showroom to me, LOL! 3 rooms, 2 bathrooms, 1 kitchen and a living room. The best part I like is the door lock, kind of high-tech. Password instead of keys. Toilet is also nice... I like the super big showerhead.

Food:
Mua ha ha, the steamboat and teppanyaki was a success... consider that it was planned within a day. Super filling and super nice. I think it was the atmosphere that matters. Hehe, with the right company, things just fall into place isn't it?

Entertainment:
No TV (sadded!) but got lots og movies... I kept falling asleep throughout the movie session, but still managed to get the whole story. Except for Taken, I practically slept throughout the movie, don't know what was going on...

Aftermath:
My face is peeling like mad (as if I am sunburnt)... actually it is due to my super sensitive and fragile skin plus the 3 days 2 nights air condition environment which caused extreme dryness. =( Spam on of moisturizer and masks! =)

Pardon for the messy hair.

Ok, let me go get the pics and back for more updates =)

Updates

2009-10-07T03:23:00.002+08:00

My Holiday...
Holiday is really nice... love that, but it's ended! =( aww!

School Stuff...
FYP is so irritated, failed once more. Crap!

BLT 19 Camp in a few hours...
Going for BLT camp tomorrow which I only realised today that the camp is actually tomorrow, lol! Aunty power! Gonna go Sheng Siong to stock up steamboat supplies! Before that, let me see how i can carry my stuff... it an extra 10kg load. Faint!

SHOPPING =)

2009-09-26T02:12:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that I went shopping with my little sister... Haha, OMG! I know we are close, but we don't really go out together as a pair. This is so rare... LOL! Ok la, mainly because our fashion sense is very different and we go different places to shop. Also, I am more of a fast shopper (as in I go into the shop, take this and that, then go pay money liao. Done in 5 mins!) while she is more of a slow shopper (enter shop, touch touch this and touch touch that, try try, think think then buy). OMG, I sill can't believe that I went shopping with her...haha!

Result Day Arrives...

2009-09-18T09:34:00.006+08:00

At the very very very least, things start to turn for the better today! 3 Cheers!!!

1) Poster Submission

Template A and B is about 90% done and almost ready for submission. Checked and stamped approval from our supervisor with minimum changes to be made. Finally, finally, finally... no more uncertainty, no more major changes, no more suprises...Phew!!! [Edited: Poster posted!!!]

2) Results

1,2,3,4,5! It's my fifth result day! Time flies isn't it? 1 more semester to the end of poly life. Wow!

Well, pretty happy with my results to be honest. Yay! It's the all time highest GPA that I had managed to attain up till now. (clap clap!) It is not as good as the really smart people, but I am happy that I can maintain my results in the midst of all the dramas that are going on...Well, there's still another semester ahead and cannot be too complacent, also need to work hard for the next sem!!! (Get even better results!!!)

Not sure for everyone, but at least for those that I know, many of the BLT peeps had shown improvemet in their results.Yay, a good sign to start off! Well just jia you for the last sem and good luck to everyone!!! =)

生气

2009-09-17T16:36:00.002+08:00

说真的，我现在非常非常非常非常生气，青筋都要爆出来了！

我受够了，我不是白痴，任由你"耍"。
Abstract, experiment, report, poster, 我们肯定从做了多过10次...
做不好，我没话说。但是我们永远做得再好也没用。因为你永远不会满意的！
Come on!!! 那是我们的心血，我们花时间、精力做的，不是垃圾ok!

Idiot!

I asked you what you wanted, and I had confirmed with you. The next day, you change your mind. It goes in a cycle, not once, not twice, it's everyday! Crap, title changed like "n" number of times, so as the experiment, report and poster.

I really had enough, SEROUSLY! If I am treated like an idiot everyday, doing rubbish everytime, then let's not waste each others time! Fine, I can really drop the mighty FYP module and enjoy life! I don't care about the 8-9 credit points, just FAIL me, just me a zero! I don't have to stay up till 10.30pm to finish experiment, waste my entire holiday by doing the experiment which had already been completed. The best thing, I don't have to "fake" myself in front of you.

Tensation

2009-09-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

I can sense tension, not just from mine group, also from the others.

Counting down: 2 days to poster submission

Well, there are so many hiccups for my final year project and that makes me really upset. I think YH and I really tried our best to please "her" but she keep giving us "uncertainty" and negative comments... Haiyo (I can't wait for it to be over)!

Eventful Friday

2009-09-15T00:22:00.002+08:00

So many things are going to happen on this coming FRIDAY, 18 Sep 2009.

Firstly: The end of Hungry Ghost Festival (Boo!)

Secondly: Deadline for poster submission to NHG conference (sian, GG)

Thirdly: The super nerve wrecking result day (God bless)

=))

失望

2009-09-14T20:39:00.004+08:00

有苦说不出，心情特别的沉重。
想帮忙却什么都做不了，觉得自己很没用。

作天又闹家庭革命了！

小时候学的"人之初，性本善"不见了。现在，大家都把"利益"看得比一切都重要。金钱的诱惑实在是太大了，“贪心”把这个幸福美满的家逼得决裂了。钱,钱,钱,钱, 任何事都要以金钱来衡量，就连亲情也不过如此。没次来我们家，说是要"商量大事"，其实也不过要来“演戏”，来“讨钱”。就算"那些人"的戏演的再好，好人坏人我从小就看清了。扪心自问，这20多年来，是谁每天照顾婆婆的，是谁每天要忍受被人咒骂，又是谁每天逍遥快活？我门一家5口问心无愧！过份的是，“那些人”不只是要钱，他们见不得其他人好，故意要破坏我门一家5口，要我们没有好日子过！

我只觉得很失望...很看不起“那些人”。有句话说“人在做，天在看”。我相信老天有眼，恶有恶报。

虽然家里发生了很多不愉快的事，但我庆幸有妈妈、妹妹和姐姐在旁支持，一切都满足了！

Irritating FYP

2009-09-11T01:16:00.002+08:00

I want to finish FYP and get it done forever, but things are not working out for the group...

It's so frustrating!

I don't know how to start. Well, you see, we are suppose to hand in our draft poster for inspection tomorrow and I just recieved the test subjects raw info just now (4pm to be exact). Hey hey hey, we still need to arrange and sort out the info and polt graphs! Hm, and the info is incomplete too. We had completed the intro, materials and methods but the rest are as good as untouched. We don't have enough info and till now, the title is still giving lots of problems. The key word "family history" is really irritating.

Well, I shall not reveal the details. But the point is -> =(

2009-09-08T11:12:00.002+08:00

Boo~~~ I reached NUH about 45 mins ago and I am super duper sleepy now... CRAP! Sitting on the chair, I really fell like dozing off the next second. Wake me up please...

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE SIS!!! (Fireworks everywhere!!)

Painc Again

2009-09-02T21:09:00.002+08:00

I am actually feeling quite worried right now, all thanks to FYP.

Countdown: 2 weeks till poster submission, 2 months to presentation

What's done: Probably 30% to 40% or a little more. The easier tests are done, glucose, insulin, triglyceride, LDL, HDL and HSCRP. Attempted Adiponectin kit, but it seems like the kit is forever giving problems, manual/auto run all failed!!

What's not: Leptin kit!! Are we still running leptin? If yes, then where on earth is the kit? If no, thank god! Adiponectin kit!!! Are you flying from US to Singapore, if yes, then die liao la, I don't think you are going to make it on time. If not, then where are you now? Can you report to us RIGHT AWAY!! Seriously desperate for the kit la, it takes a full day to run the tests. If the QC, standards are out, then gonna repeat the test again, which takes another 5-6 hours. Time is running out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aiyo, I am just feeling very vex. Time is really running out, yet there are alot of uncontrollable factors which slow down the progress. I want to start, but don't know where to start, how to start. =( I had not even finish my experiment, how to start on my poster? I don't even have the patient's info, how can I draw graphs and interpret those results? Now what, diabetes or cardiovascular diseases?

How??? HOW??? HHOOWW?? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

New partners

2009-09-01T23:21:00.004+08:00

Molecular Diagnositc Centre is basically about G&P, actually more on the "G", which is genomics. Lots of PCR, everywhere is PCR machines...

Anyway, what I wanted to blog about is my new lab partners - Sooria, Elias, Zi Hui, Yin Ling and Patricia. Rarely have chances to work with them, new experience for this time. Yup, and they are really a fun company which makes the boring day much much better. Hehe =) Ok, post a photo on our DNA extraction practical session.

Ok, I am going to sleep early today, or else I will be sleepy again tomorrow! It is going to start @ 8.30am!!!

It's over

2009-08-29T04:01:00.002+08:00

Friday is finally here, woot! Last day of exam and I am all done for semester 3.1. GREAT!!!

BUT, I am still very sad, cause I cannot talk. It's not because that I have a sore throat or something, it is that I have not 1 but 2 (OMG) irritating ulcers sitting side by side on my gums. I don' know how it got there... exam stress? weather?? Anyway, it is super painful la, and I am sooooo sad ='(. I cannot open my mouth more than a few centimetres, cause it hurts badly. I cannot talk properly, cannot eat solid food, need a straw when drinking and I cannot even sleep properly. CRY!!! BOO HOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

The fact that I cannot talk makes me super sad. I can finally understand how a mute feels. I wanted to share my feelings to someone, or sometimes, convey a simple message but I can't. Boo hoo!!!

I think that I am about to fall sick real soon, considering the fact that I have ulcers, massive breakouts, and feeling "hot" every now and then.

Yup, and I was so desperate for the swelling to subside that I tried the legendary "salt therapy". Seriously, if the pain level is 100 (enough to kill) before, than it became 100000 when I applied the salt. #(*#*&^#*&^)#*)&^# - Curse and swear - Ok, joking! Despite of the pain, I am not sure of the effects, see how it goes ba. I think I will wait for sometime, if CMI, then I am going to see a doctor and end all these sufferings.

Ok, I am too devastated to blog... sign off!

2009-08-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

To Grandma & Dad: 不要太過分!!!

Zzz...

Die liao lar!

2009-08-27T15:02:00.016+08:00

G&P tomorrow!!! =X
Noticed something, everyone feel so dead for G&P. I copied their msn nick down...

Patricia: G&P - 28august09 !!! dead.

Yii huan: with the rain out there, here i am studying G&P );

Li Ting: G&P is driving me crazy! Paper: 28 Aug.

Mee Zhen: wahaha gone case for gnp

Mine: it's a trend, it's a fact -> SO DEAD FOR G&P!!!

The bad thing is that I really don't know much about G&P. I tried to understand but the contents but, I still don't quite get it. I tired to clear my doubts by asking my classmates, well, it helps a little, at least I cleared some doubts. Haha, the funniest thing is from mz "reverse vaccinology is like a fire drill in school, then we will know what to do when a real fire comes". Haha, lol -_-". But, I am still so so so dead sia! Fortunately it is a 1.5 credit (if i am not wrong) module. But, I need to pass it, if not, staying back for another 1/2 year for G&P is really stupid.

Ok, the good thing is that tomorrow will mark the end of the exam season for this semester. This also means that after tomorrow, I will be proceeding to Semester 3.2 (last and final sem)!!! Cool. I want to get this poly and BLT thingy done asap! But before that, the dreaded FYP will resume again. Sad!

I really don't understand why BLT people have to do attachment and FYP in the midst of normal curriculum with lots of lectures. On top of that, we still have our common test and semester exam. And it is not spread over a year, it all happen within a semester. Hey, this is seriously NOT FAIR!!! Look at all those NP people, they can slack like XYZ and why we don't even have our holiday breaks. If I am not wrong, major part of our breaks are lost from Sem 2.2 onwards. It's like almost 1 entire year with minimal break...THAT IS SERIOUSLY NOT FAIR!!! Why must we slog slog slog everyday? Exams after exams, reports after reports, argh! And the fact is that, after all the hardwork, GPA is still crappy. CRAP!!!

To make me more angry, there's attachment on Monday!?! Like #!@&*$, the others are indulging in their "happy holiday" and schooling resumes RIGHT AFTER the exams for BLT! That's totally inhuman!!! We are students, not superman! The schedule goes like this -> FYP literature search in the holiday, phlebo course in the holiday, polyclinic attachment, hand in report & do 72 tutorial questions, rush rush rush to met deadline for NHG conference, start of the actual FYP, endless editing of FYP report, kill yourself by doing another 72 tutorial questions, mug mug mug for exams, then attachment right after. NO LIFE TO THE MAX. Who says JC people don't have a life, BLT people even worst! Believe it or not!

Don't understand

2009-08-25T16:38:00.003+08:00

I declare that I don't understand G&P despite of spending effort to make sense out of that.

Ok, the fact is that I KO-ed at lecture 1, like -__-" I can only understand the Sanger method, Hierarchical and shotgun approach. The rest, I cannot make a good sense out of that... zzz, so frustrating sia! What is genetic map, genetic marker??? Explain in layman terms please.

I am so dead for G&P!!!

2009-08-25T00:56:00.004+08:00

Argh!

Family matters make me want to leave my house and live my own life.

Crap.

I think my life is very drama, seriously. If I make it into a drama/movie, I guess it will be more drama than "Zhen Qing". Haiz. It's hard to describe my situation because there are too many things involved. Everything is soooo out of control, how leh?!? I am really tired of all the S**T that is going on la. Although grandma brought tonnes of trouble but she is sick, at least this provide me with an excuse to forgive and forget. Well, Dad, UNFORGIVEN!!! He ruin my little happy family. I can live as well, or even better without him. I had tried to forgive him for those hurtful actions that he did. But again and again, he dissapointed me. Till now, he's getting bad to worst to CMI liao. I had totally gave up! HATE YOU!

On another hand, I love my mum and sisters!!! They are really the pillar of my life and I am really grateful for that. We will stay through the ordeal together!

3 down, 1 to go!!

2009-08-22T11:32:00.003+08:00

A little post exam break (although it's not done)...

(They guys for left to right -> Henry, Darren, WJ, WQ, JX)

Yin Ling, Li Ting

Patricia, Me and Mee Zhen

(ok, the photos are a little overcompressed =X)

Last one for now

2009-08-21T07:10:00.002+08:00

Quickly, fast forward to 8.30am please!!!!
Let the ordeal begin and end quickly!!!

I am so looking forward... Although it's another exam which is likely to kill again.

Well, seriously, I am in this mood:
"ok, I am giving up, I don't want to mug anymore. Just let the time pass quickly and let me have some peace. The thing is that what I put in 120% effort in was gone to waste and what I overlooked will definitely come up for the exam, argh, so what's the use of studying and mugging like there is no tomorrow?? "

Yea, if there is no question on the lifecycle of Nematode/Trematode/Cestode/Antibiotic/Susceptibility testing, I should tear the paper, lol joking la, I need the marks desperately.

Hm, I am sad sad sad... due to exam syndrome, and pre/post exam worry. =(

I will take a break tomorrow, after the exam. I will sleep for 10 hours, watch TV and blog-hopping for the rest of the day. I deserve a break ok!!!

**Noticed that all the blog posted on this week is about EXAM... Yea, because it is. I feel so "no life" now....**

Haem kills!!!

2009-08-20T10:07:00.000+08:00

Why like that?!?

I really feel that I will score super bad for this semester, how leh~~ Sad!

Chem paper killed me, then Haem paper killed me again. =X

I have no time to go through the stack of notes in detail, so I chose those that we learnt after common test to focus on, since it always happen to be that what was in the first 3 months of the sem is hardly tested. WHO KNOWS, it turn up to be anti direction this time round. Argh!!

I know that lab diagnosis and morphology will come up somewhere, so I studied for >3 times for the common disorders : MDS, CML, Polycythemia, Thrombocytosis, Multiple Myeloma... and then, it was no where to be found on the paper (ok la, perhaps 1 or 2 questions in MCQ). AHHHHHH!!!! Instead of CML, CLL was tested, CRAP! Flow cytometry was indeed tested, but it's not the principle of the scatter/fluorescence, it's a 10marks question of light emission. CRAP!

Aiya, I think I am just very very very dead for that paper!
Super sad lor!!!

Exam Syndrome

2009-08-19T07:00:00.001+08:00

I call it the exam syndrome

Symptoms include:
- headache
- LOA
- running nose
- increase in body temp (Yes, I am currently @ 37.1 deg C)
- anxiety, stress
- cannot fall asleep

Diagnosis:
- You will know it yourself, "self-diagnosable"

Treatment:
- Miraculously self-cured after exam, no specific treatment.

I think more or less everyone is having it. Hm, all the best! Take care!

* By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHANG LITING!!! Officially apologise to you, cos there's no birthday celebration due to the exam. But nevermind, I will be making a card for you!!! Haha, past you after the exams, hope you will like it! =)

* Another issue, the NHG abstract was accepted!! (Crap, i can't believe it! It was so haphazardly done that it should be worst than my secondary school standard. It was compiled in 2 days with everything done at the eleventh hour. And, what the... it's accepted!?!)

Chem down...

2009-08-18T03:33:00.004+08:00

Nah~~~

The paper killed me.

Ok, I am little sad because of that. I think I can roughly know how the results will turn out.

Part 1: MCQ
I think MCQ is easier this time round. Yea, great!

Part 2: Short Answer Question
3 questions in all, choose 2. I cannot make up which 2 I should answer, so I did all. Weighing the pros and cons, I finally chose Qn 1 and 3. I am not confident with either of the answers, but it's the best that I got. Hope that my answers can be able to make it. Finger crossed.

Part 3: Essay Question
Yea, this is where I think I will score really bad. FYI, it's a whole 20 marks, which is a serious big deal. Once again, I don't have confidence on my essay, actually it is quite badly done. ="( I just cannot remember what I had studied, my brain is malfunctioning throughout the exam (that's the worst thing that can happen). Praying for miracles... please, don't fail me!!!

Sidetrack:
BLT 17 exam question - "Write an essay on the normal metabolism of bone formation; bone turnover and bone loss. What's the role of the laboratory in assessing bone loss?"
And............. it is found on today's paper. What the ????

Life goes on isn't it. 3 more papers are waiting for me to conquer and I believe I have the power to do that. Jia you!

Ok, stay on track, study is the priority!!

2009-08-16T16:30:00.004+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Clinical Chem exam tomorrow... SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, due to unforeseen circumstances, I did minimal revision for the upcoming test.

I am soooooo not prepared.

Please....... let me sustain my GPA.

Argh, I am so super nervous!!!

Jia you everyone!!!

Alright, I am going back to mugging status (i am not that hardworking, it's all last min work, Opps!!)

Typhoon Morakot

2009-08-15T16:45:00.006+08:00

ok, today's topic is about Typhoon Morakot...

I don't know if you people know that I actually watch Taiwan news if I am free. Yes, I really do! Anyway, for the past few days, I had been following the Taiwan news very closely because of typhoon Morakot.

Typhoon Morakot devastated the country on 8 Aug, washing away houses, tearing apart families. On the day that we celebrated our National Day and when we enjoyed watching the fireworks, thousand of people are striving and fighting for survival back in Taiwan... ='(

Anyway, a summary of the situation that I got from the news channel:

1) Till yesterday, 4 rescuers tried their best to get as many people out of danger but died on their duties. 3 died in a helicopter crash while another downed while crossing the rushing water.

2) Of all, I think the worst hit area is the Siao Lin village. Villagers said that there used to be over 300 houses standing before the typhoon but now, only are 2 left. Government officials predicted that some 300 people were buried alive while the villagers proposed that the death toll is likely reach 600 people.

3) For many people, their homes were gone forever. The place that they spent their entire life at was totally wipe out, their comfort zone is no longer recognisable. Many even had their ancestors' graves were washed away. The only thing that was preserved is their memories.

='( Jia you Taiwan!!!

Exam Due too Soon...

2009-08-07T18:32:00.006+08:00

No mood, no mood, seriously no mood to study... =(

Went for G&P lesson just now, I have this feeling that I am very dead for that. Please don't let me fail G&P, if not, I will need to stay back for 1 full semester... that's dumb, but it happens lor.

I need lots of MOTIVATION, COMMITMENT & ENERGY...

Ok, people, poly life is ending real soon, probably in another 6 months time. Use this exam to salvage GPA (very important okay!) and have fun while studying.

Good luck people (well, to me as well).

Okay, picture for the day... ("Da Bian Tang", lol. Cute right?! FYI, the candy inside are also shaped into a POOP... haha!)

Joke of the day: I brought my laptop, but happily left the adapter and battery at home. Lucky that Hock Wan and Wang Qin saved my day... Phew, thanks guys!!!

The wall!

2009-08-04T18:24:00.005+08:00

Yesterday I felt like banging the wall... because everything went wrong, and I mean EVERYTHING!

I don't know why, but I was super suay. There were more than 10 different incidents to make me upset and they built on top on each other and reached my breaking point... Boo Hoo.. ok, let me name a few.

1) I stepped on a rusted nail while I was rushing... (cry!!!!!!!!!)
2) I was being nag for 1 hour because I happened to be the only available person to be nag at, and I can't stop her!!! (take note, I was really irritated with other incidents before that)
3) I cannot fix the printer (despite spending so much effort, time, money and patience...CRAP!)
4) My lappy auto shutdown for 5 times (and it always happen on the crucial moments)

Well, haiya, i know they are small things, but when everything went wrong, they built on top of one and other and cause my tolerance to decline exponentially (yea, i don't have much tolerance to start off with...haha).

I went to eat my dinner, (fyi: that's my favourite food), but I have zero appetite. So, I dumped myself on the bed and off to sleep. Unfortunately I was too frustrated to go into sleep mode. Nah~~~

Good Luck to me!!!

Crabby

2009-08-03T15:47:00.001+08:00

I ate crab... Yes I did that on purpose and on temptation...

Now I am super itchy all over...

Blame myself! Serve me right!

=(

2009-07-28T21:48:00.005+08:00

Went to Stats talk just now, well, totally don't understand (i think everybody forgot their year 1 stuff liao)... Haha! I don't think we need that for our FYP, foget about it la.

Yup, nice to meet the m06 girls, it was like going back to year 1 lecture days, where we will occupy the entire row and talk... Time flies!!!

Went to the library's games room after the talk and we played a game, i think it was "Who's the boss"... Aiyo, cannot remember la. Anyway, the point is that you need to talk big stories and cheat people to invest with you. It's a very scheming and sly game lor (make sure that it will not break your friendship after playing...) I think I was quite "mean". =X. I threatened to "STOP" everyone even when I don't even have the power cards... Ok, that's just a game... don't take it too seriously. But it was fun (and very noisy) la... especially if you play with noisy and scheming people...haha! =)

Anyway, I am "cheapo" recently... Haha, everyone knows that the economy is bad la, so I must save up abit. I bought CLEO because I wanted the free gift..haha! Bought a pair of PUMA running shoes (yes, finally) at a good price (hehe, i wanted to buy another but it was out of size, so I bought the next best choice. It's light and cheap, not a bad deal either).

This is GOOD

2009-07-25T20:25:00.007+08:00

A new powerful organising tool for the piles and piles of lecture notes...

Small pinky folder is the new storage queen

The challenge: To fit all these 3 piles of notes into 1.

Tada!! Done! There's certainly room for more lecture notes...

Lovin it

2009-07-25T16:27:00.001+08:00

I had it!!!

???

2009-07-23T23:15:00.006+08:00

Announcement 1: I want to eat Mac's Seaweed Shaker Fries!!!

Announcement 2: Yay, i added 1K into my bank account!!!

Announcement 3: I ate spoilt durian just now, and totally did not realise that. Hope that I will not get any diarrhoea tomorrow... =(

Announcement 4: I handed up Genomics & Proteomics Assignment 2 liao

Announcement 5: Genomics & Proteomics exam is on 28 August!

I don't understand my FYP... I don't know how to link 3 different things together and still making a good sense out of that.

Anyway, this is like the third time we changed our project title. Zzz!
1) Adiopnectin (Kit Evaluation)
2) Obesity and Type 2 Diabetes
3) Risk Assessment of Cardiovascular Diseases (current)

Yea, I think that things will change again, so... HAIYO!!! Need to search and read up on other journals, change the report again and again. It's super frustrating and irritating. The worst thing is that I cannot even convince myself about the experiment and how will I be able to make a presentation/report and convince the rest of the world. Crap! I need to figure out the things somehow. Any help/advice???